Addictions part deux

So a musical addiction this time, and that would be Evanescence. I got hooked on them way back in middle school and had not listen to them in a while when travel they came up on my mp3 player and now it is all I want to listen to. It has broken my Paramore addiction, which I have had for a good two years now I sure a break is okay, plus I have a huge playlist in Zune that has both and many other random songs I like to listen to, but right now I am listening to the Evanescence playlist and probably will for a while.

It is dark music that I actually got into in a not so dark part of my life things where about to go dark but I didn't know that, maybe that is why I was drawn to it, as I was only two years away from high school which is what started some of the darkest years of my so far short life. Which that story is for another post as those sad days were not an addiction.

I think I have come back to them for the dark aspect. Although I don't want Sleepless to get too dark it has its dark aspects and well to help get me back into dark places dark music is a must. I listened to this when I read a book called Cut, it was about cutting, I think I listened to this whenever I'm reading a dark book. But anyways it will definitely be on the playlist when I write the Suicide book.

I just took a look around my room which hasn't changed much since high school and I can count the dark elements of my decorating. My room is weird I think it would be hard to tell what I was like just by looking at it, though then again I guess it could tell a whole lot about who I am/was like I said hasn't changed since high school.

Anyways yes I am addicted to dark music. I love it makes it easier to write sometime, though I haven't tried writing to it recently. Which I think is what I am going to go do.

Till later. Peace.

A title escapes me

So first off I will be posting a lot in the next few weeks. I am trying to post at least as many post as last year and I need to post daily and possible twice daily to get that done, I slacked too much this year and now have to rush to catch up. Why? Because it would bug me if I dropped in posts from last year to this year when I gained in post from 08 to 09 so I feel I at least need to post the same from 09 to 10 if not more I will have to see if I can keep the focus and have enough good material which I think I will with x-mas my dad's b-day and my addition post.

In other news I have decided that after I finish Sleepless or maybe even while working on it I will be writing the Suicide book as it will be called until I come up with a actual title for me. The title of this post has nothing to do with the lack of title for this book, it just kinda happened.

Okay now to go write a post that will actually be published later, I know I never do that but the idea for addition part 2 just came to me and I have to write it now before I forget so be on the look out for it tomorrow.

Peace

I just remembered

I just remembered that I said I would try to post more pics so here some are.

Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday to my sis-in-law Liz.

Addictions part 1

As I go through life I see something mostly on TV and then become addicted to it, this time it is the show Bones. I have watched Bones for a while now so it is really not a relatively new addiction but in the last few weeks I have watched/am watching every episode available on Netfilx. Before Bones it was Roswell, which sparked an idea for another novel, Bones did not do that as although I like murder mysteries I could not write something like that, although I have discovered that I write dark really well, maybe I'll write a novel on suicide, like a collection of different people committing suicide each chapter being the story of how that person got from living life to killing themselves, it would be really dark but not the first book about suicide as I read one about two years ago called Th3rteen R3ason Why, it was good, sad, but good. I say that because this post was about how good of a dark writer I am and the post it was on was a short prose of the experience of someone committing suicide. So writing multiple of those with more back story and detail could be an interesting thing for me. Maybe my addictions to a show about death and murder is bringing up the dark part of me, I know I am good at writing dark things so I know I should pursue that, but Sleepless is actually going well right now and of what I have written although I notice a dark undertone it is not a dark story everyone that has heard about it or read it has found it to be good and interesting. I love my dark writing but I also love my not so dark writing.

I do have to say that I think I am addicted to the dark writing more, because I am thinking of adding some darker elements into Sleepless, not for sure but seeing where the writing takes me.

On a different note I will be posting more pics of my nephew Zander asap and possibly tomorrow.

Oh this is also going to be a series of post about things I have become addicted to, weather they be books, TV shows, or other things.

Cuteness Update

I was watching the beginning of the Pats Jets game at work waiting for B's parents which meant B was watching it with me. Well something good happened, just a good play no score or nothing and I shot my hands up and said yes very loudly and I look down and B has her hands up too it was so cute, no pic was taken but even if there was I wouldn't put it here since she is not my kid, but anyways it was the cutest thing I have seen her do in a while.

I don't normally do this kind of post.

As the title says I don't normally do posts like the one I am now writing(I post after I draft, thus part of the reason for the last post) so why am I now, I don't really know I just felt like, what is this post that I would not normally do, well you're going to just have to keep reading to find out but it won't be too much longer before I get to the point.

Okay so my point, right you want that now. Well let me start with giving a little background on why I don't normally do this type of post, well I don't like confrontation so I try to not rock the boat. I have my views and will express them with my family but I don't even share all my views with them and being my family they can at times gleam what I feel and or how I feel about something, well I am going to share some of my views here today and not everyone my understand or agree with them, that being said remember my last post no ugliness or rude/hurtful comments, state your opinion and be kind to all any ugly or rude comment will not be posted.

So I read today an article on yahoo about ads for atheists and christens, talking about this and that and hoe there is an atheist ad campaign that happens to be running during Christmas. Well I am neither and atheist or a christen, I really don't know what I am. My parents think and say I am having a loss of faith and are sure that I will find my path, I think if I am going to be anything at this time I'll will be a Wicca, but that is for later. As with all articles on yahoo people can comment and there were some fairly ugly comments towards the atheists.

So my views, I think if there is a god he wouldn't care what the people and things he created thought and believed if he or she or some sexless all powerful being exists he she it will love everything it created. It won't send those who don't follow some book written by man and not him her it. He she it won't care if you believe in he she it or not he she it will love you all the same. No matter your beliefs not matter what you do because he she it made you or made it possible for you to be made and made it possible for you think and and breath and move and feel and be who you are and believe what you want, if the is a heaven there is no hell because no being that created a world would send those who he she it made to a place that is full of fire or lack of hope or there is fear or there is hurt, if there is a hell then we are all on it now and if we can make it through then we get the easy afterlife of heaven, we are not judged at death that makes not sense to be judged at death, we all live a life of ups and downs we all live in our own person hells at one point or another so why on earth in hell whatever ever saying you prefer would something someone that allowed to be created send of to a worse place than we are already in, that is just wrong and no loving higher being would do that, no truely loving being could do that.

I don't believe in organized religion, Wicca is the least organized religion that I can see good points in but I still wouldn't join anything, all they do is shove falsehoods down your throat and scare and guilt people in to doing what they think is right they don't talk to god if they do then they are crazy or have some mental disease and need help, either way if anyone say they talk to god they need help. I do get that some people well a lot of people need structure and people telling them what is right and wrong and that it is how a lot of people find tier ethic and morals but all organized religions are technically cults it's just the 'mainstream' ones are culturally and socially accepted but it still doesn't change the fact that they a cults as the definition of the word cult is "a particular system of religious worship, esp. with reference to its rites and ceremonies." this came from dictionary.com. I think if there is a god that life is not a test per say but a way of seeing how its creations is changing and evolving and when our life comes to an end the all power being if it exists will take us to in the infinite space of the universe. As an intellectual being myself I can't truly say what is or is not out there as I do not have all the facts, but I can express my views and say what I think and believe. I don't do these kinds of post because I don't like confrontation but the comments in that article bugged me and I know I didn't link it well I'm thinking I should so here it is.

And that is all for today mostly because I am losing my train of thought.