Happy Late Birthday Zander!

I'm a day late, but yesterday Zander my nephew turned 2. He is such a great crazy little boy that is full of energy and spirit.

Chaos has begun again

So my birthday was the 3rd of the month yeah I'm 22. I got sick the day after after being sick the week before, fun times, fun times, you wish you were me. Life is still crazy as we ended up back in Arkansas a week after my birthday to get my sis in law and her children. Since then we have trying to adjust liveing with two small children. yeah so life is back to be comppletely crazy with no end in sight as we have no timeline on to when things will settle. Ah life.

Happy Birthday B!

B is 3 today and she is sick, she has mono of all things. Her mom was surprised and slightly confused on how her 3 year old got mono. Her doctor says she could have gotten it from preschool if a kid in her class has older siblings or from just about anywhere so we have no clue where she got it and we are all watching ourselves for symptoms. SO yeah B is 3 but we have to watch for signs of mono in her adult caretakers. Ah whhat a wonderful brithday.

Post xmas

Well first off today is my dad's birthday. So Happy Birthday to him. We had a good xmas nice quite simple. My sister-in-law is going to Arkansas to have Kenzi, but I believe it haas more to do with my brother getting crap at work then the need for her to learn to drive though she will be stuck in Arkansas for at least two month after Kenzi is born so she can be properly vacinated before going back to Dover. This makes it easier for me and my family in Texas to see her as the drive to Arkansas is cheaper than tickets to Dover. And I believe that is all right now.

Update and some thoughts

So it has been a while since I did a decent post. Halloween was uneventful a normal day at work and then a quite night in, my family got back late from bringing my brother, sister-in-law, and nephew to Arkansas. We went back there the following weekend for my nephew's first birthday. It was a good time and it was fun to see how happy he was with the cake, thought he is allergic it would seem to the food coloring. I do have picture but they are still on my camera haven't had a chance to get them onto a computer yet. Some things went down that weren't so great but they are still up in the air so I can't really talk about them yet. My sister-in-law is pregnant again it's a girl Mackenzi Renee. She is due in March on my little brother due date actually, though Wesley got evicted (mom was educed so she did not give birth in the car on the way to the hospital, older brother born in about an hour fifteen minutes of active labor I was forty five minutes they were scared it would reduce again an it did mom had only about thirty minutes of active labor with the little brother). Though since Zander was born via c-section Kenzi(or Zi(pronounced z)) has to as well as it has not been enough time for my sis in law to try naturally. But we are all excited if not a little shocked, Kenzi and Zander will only be 16 months apart.

My grandfather who has been in bad health recently is doing worse we don't know how much longer he has but it is probably not very long. I don't know how I feel about this as I have never had a good relationship with him. He tried to beat me when I was only five because I tried to kick my seven year old cousin who was living with us at the time out of the house my grandparents were visiting and were in their RV out in the yard which is where my cousin went, I had to barricade a door until my parents got home and yelled at my grandfather because in their mind it did not matter what I did they would not beat me or let him beat me. I have no other strong memories of him and from what I have been told of my mother's childhood she(well not so much she, she was practically invisible to her parents no matter what she did) and her sibling were beaten regularly in today's society they would have been removed from their home. So it hard to feel sad for a man that was so terrible add to that that he was an alcoholic, a functioning one but still and knowing that part of that fueled my mother's(well when she did get them) , aunts, and uncle's( two aunts one uncle that died before I was born but that is a story for a different post) beating makes it harder. I know my grandmother will be sad an my mom and that makes it hard but I don't know how I will truly feel and that is hard.

There is something I want to write about but can't yet as it has not been dealt with yet I will be dealing with it soon and then probably feel compelled to write about it.

My computer is still dead and while I've gotten my novel back it is hard to write when I know I have to save it in multiple places. I really need a new computer but there is just so much other stuff going on right now that it hard to think about shelling out the money needed to get a decent laptop that will last a good few years, well hopefully more than a few years.

Well that is it fir now I guess hopefully I will be writing more on here at least.

The big One

Well it's my birthday today and it's the big 21. It was a great day and I had a good time.

Random Stuff and other ramblings

B's birthday was yesterday I was with her all day she was good and had a really nice birthday. Her party was last Saturday it was fun but I hardly knew anyone so that made it a little weird. We are working on potty training and it is not going so hot. It makes me sad since I am the one dealing with the messes but hey that is what it is.

I really am going to blog more I have a series in mind where I sing songs I like and explain why and all that I think I have mentioned this before it is taking me a while because my computer keeps saying I have no speakers, I have a laptop so this is really weird and if it doesn't stop/if my dad can't fix it I will have to take it somewhere to get it looked at.

Mt rents are in Arkansas right now and my mom brother and I are going next week which will mean new and updated picture of the beautiful baby Zander. I have more recent ones now but they are on my phone and I have to find the right cord in order to get them onto the computer.

Addiction part I don't know cause I lost count

My latest addiction Rent and the new Glee songs. I have loved Rent for a while but have just recently gotten back into it. I been listening to the songs for a good couple weeks now and am thinking about watching it again soon.

I absolutely love the Glee Original songs they are very catchy. I have been listening to them since they came out after the episode aired.

Which brings me to the idea I have for another series. I like to sing but have not done that for a while and well I would vlog but I would rather write my thought then speak them I will however record myself singing and write the reason I like the song and why I chose it, not sure how many I will do or when the first will be up but it should be soon.

I also promise that my next post will be longer.

Oh my little brother's birthday was a week ago, he had a good time even though he had to go to school. And that was also Aidan's birthday. My sis-in-law and nephew are in Arkansas and I will be visiting them in April I am very excited about that Zander will be 5 months old.

Also A Happy Birthday

Also today is my dad's 50th Birthday, So a Happy Birthday to him, although he is not allowed to read the blog.

Peace

Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday to my sis-in-law Liz.

I'm

20 today. So Happy Birthday to Me and whatnot. Will be fixing profile later.

i started again

That's right tonight I started working on my novel again. I made myself sit down and start writing. Fight the writers block with writing. I am very proud of myself right now. I had not touch my novel since sometime last year and it feels good to be writing it again. And I know people probably think I 'm crazy for this but I have to write in order which is what has partly taken me so long to get back to it. I don't know why but I just have to go in order. So that is the good news for tonight.

Oh and I have a job interview on my birthday for a job at a photography studio, I am very excited and hope I get it, I would love to work on my photography skills and get paid to do it.

What to do, What to do

I work at a childcare center. I love my job it is fun. We are having a mass birthday party for all our January birthdays, we have four. One of the children in my class is allergic to peanuts and eggs. Well he happens to be one of the children who's birthday is in January so it wouldn't be fair to have the party on a day he was not there. So now the fun to find an eggless cake recipe so that he can enjoy a birthday cake. I think I have found on but I have never baked anything that didn't have egg in it. I just hope it all goes well because I want all the children to enjoy the party. I have never had to deal with an allergy like this before, though the child is very aware of his allergy and asks if he can eat something if he has not had it before and does not know if it has egg in it or not. I think my biggest worry is that the children wont like the cake. I just don't know we will see how it goes.

Life is crazy

So life is weird and crazy. I talked to Jon today you know the whole trying to be friends thing. Well he IMed me first I saw him sign on and waited and he said hi first and we talked for about an hour. He is going to be in Texas in a few weeks I think not sure he never said when he was actually coming but he wants to visit his family he hasn't seen them I think since he moved anyways he asked me to lunch or something when he is here and of course I said yes, I am looking at it as a real goodbye because the I got before he moved sucked cause it was a see you later that got turned into a goodbye when he decided to move to Japan. It will help if I can start a relationship before he comes here because it will be easier to tell myself that we are just two friends having lunch. I know this will be weird for me but if I get my real goodbye it will be so helpful in the moving on process.

In other things yesterday was my mom's birthday. Since it was a Sunday nothing was really that different other then going out to lunch. She had a very relaxing birthday and when she got on the Wii fit it even wished her a happy birthday.

Dude it's my Birthday.

I feel old, and I'm only 19. but you know it is not fair Bella in Twilight got to be 18 forever why can't I. Where is my extremely hot not sadistic vampire. Why do I have to grow older? So not fair. Though I am happy and it is the first time I get to get presents that are not from myself. Ok Ok since I was 16 but geeze is a trip to Europe really a Birthday present if you pay for it yourself, yes I was in Paris on my Birthday that year and got Champagne and had the time of my life but really I did pay for it. I have oh never mind I got my Zune when I turned 17 again bought it myself and well 18 was four days after graduation so everything was given as a both, so what if I didn't have to pay for the laptop that was graduation and partially from my school and the car well that was needed and a piece of crap does not come across as present material to me. But my dad mentioned getting me something this year so there is hope. Ok so I am excited it is my birthday maybe I'll get lucky and find my vampire and convince him to freeze me forever at 21 so I can at least drink legally before going through all the pain it takes to become a vampire.

Happy St. Patricks Day

So I am quite Irish so St. Patrick's Day has always been a pretty big deal for my family. We always have corn beef and cabbage. It is a big thing at my grandparents house. This year I was at first going to invite Jon, and it would have just been my parents and my little brother, I would not put Jon meeting the extended part of my family yet. But then he was moving and it is my spring break so I was going too go visit Jon in California for the week and not really do anything for St. Patrick's day unless Jon was doing something. But then he went to China and I believe he is still in Japan, so no I stayed in Texas, and will be having corn beef and cabbage tonight with my family. It's not a bad thing I love corn beef and cabbage and because of my parents view on alcohol I will get to drink if I want and if we have it, not sure if we will have it because well I really don't know why it is St. Patrick's day so I am sure there will be some from of alcohol, I mean according to the stereotype of Irish is that they get drunk all the time. But I think the real purpose of this post other then to say Happy St. Patrick's Day is to show how much one day, one plan can change. I have been dealing with so much change and in so little time and I have had very little control over it, I think that is a big reason of why I am transferring schools, that is change I control, that is something that will get me closer to someone I want to be with and get my relationship back to being how it was before he moved. I hope Jon is traveling today because he dose not believe in eating on this day, at least I think he was joking, hopefully, but still the sooner he gets back to California the sooner I can talk to him. This is a holiday that I feel close to because of my heritage so again I wish everyone a Happy St. Patrick's Day.


It is also my my aunt Jean's Birthday, she is my godmother and is always so happy when I talk to her. She fell off a horse when I was five and has major brain damage, she lives with my grandparents and is much like a middle school girl, she can't work and I don't remember her in any other way. She had a husband but the sad part about brain trauma is that it is hard on the loved ones, and they did not last much past that first year. But again this is her Birthday and she will be and is probably very excited about that fact.

Japan now

Jon is now in Japan and will be there for about another week. They are done with whatever it was they were doing but now are just visiting Japan. I'm actually kinda of jealous I want to go to Japan one day and he loves it there. I think he is just excited that in the few weeks for working for EA that he gets to travel, I think this is his first time out of the US but I'm not sure will have to ask the next time I talk to him. I really just can't wait till I can talk to him on the phone again.

My little brothers birthday was on the 10th he turned 11 it was also Aidan's birthday he turned 3. I got Aidan a toy set of dinosaurs and nothing yet for my brother but three year olds are way easier to shop for. We are going out to dinner tonight for my little brother and I will be taking him to Six Flags on Wednesday.

I have this whole week off work and I am so looking forward to just be able to relax.

My older brother is getting married in April meaning I get to go to Maryland. I think it is so he can get his fiancee pregnant which is totally up to them, but he is still in training for another 12 weeks and they wont be able to be together.

My older cousin is allso getting married next year though. She is 21 and he is 48. I know I am dating someone older then me but only 6 years not over 20. I find it gross but I will be happy for her, if this is what she wants and will make her happy then she can have it.