Chaos has begun again

So my birthday was the 3rd of the month yeah I'm 22. I got sick the day after after being sick the week before, fun times, fun times, you wish you were me. Life is still crazy as we ended up back in Arkansas a week after my birthday to get my sis in law and her children. Since then we have trying to adjust liveing with two small children. yeah so life is back to be comppletely crazy with no end in sight as we have no timeline on to when things will settle. Ah life.

Almost Done

With less then a week left of class and only two finals I am feeling good that this school year is almost over. I have had my personal drama and what not but the actual first year of college is so close to being over. I have decent grades in most of my classes and the few i don't I have opportunity to bring them up. I am ready to be done for a year. I am ready for my break. I am ready to get to work on building my financial freedom and success. I have two weeks left in my dorm and then it will be back to my parents, which I would normally not be excited about but with the circumstance I'm in I actually ok with it, I mean I get to work and make money and they will not make me pay rent or for food, I get to save the money I make for when I move out to Arizona and I will still be making money when I move and not have a "real job" I get to focus on studying and fun. My life is working out even though just a few short weeks ago I thought it would not. I mean I still miss Jon and no matter how hard I try to keep him off my mind it doesn't seem to work, but I'm working on it and it will take time to get over, I loved him, still love him and that is not something that just goes away. I am trying to see other people to help with that but it's hard to know what I want with things ending but not really ending, I kinda feel like I am cheating on him even though he is no longer part of my life, for all I know he is stuck somewhere that has no contact to the outside world worrying what I think has happened to him, but then he could just be being a jerk, i don't know and that is the problem. Oh well everything will work it's self out eventually.

So that is it for now, school almost over and trying really hard to move on with my love life.
Aidan's Day to come soon.

Happy St. Patricks Day

So I am quite Irish so St. Patrick's Day has always been a pretty big deal for my family. We always have corn beef and cabbage. It is a big thing at my grandparents house. This year I was at first going to invite Jon, and it would have just been my parents and my little brother, I would not put Jon meeting the extended part of my family yet. But then he was moving and it is my spring break so I was going too go visit Jon in California for the week and not really do anything for St. Patrick's day unless Jon was doing something. But then he went to China and I believe he is still in Japan, so no I stayed in Texas, and will be having corn beef and cabbage tonight with my family. It's not a bad thing I love corn beef and cabbage and because of my parents view on alcohol I will get to drink if I want and if we have it, not sure if we will have it because well I really don't know why it is St. Patrick's day so I am sure there will be some from of alcohol, I mean according to the stereotype of Irish is that they get drunk all the time. But I think the real purpose of this post other then to say Happy St. Patrick's Day is to show how much one day, one plan can change. I have been dealing with so much change and in so little time and I have had very little control over it, I think that is a big reason of why I am transferring schools, that is change I control, that is something that will get me closer to someone I want to be with and get my relationship back to being how it was before he moved. I hope Jon is traveling today because he dose not believe in eating on this day, at least I think he was joking, hopefully, but still the sooner he gets back to California the sooner I can talk to him. This is a holiday that I feel close to because of my heritage so again I wish everyone a Happy St. Patrick's Day.


It is also my my aunt Jean's Birthday, she is my godmother and is always so happy when I talk to her. She fell off a horse when I was five and has major brain damage, she lives with my grandparents and is much like a middle school girl, she can't work and I don't remember her in any other way. She had a husband but the sad part about brain trauma is that it is hard on the loved ones, and they did not last much past that first year. But again this is her Birthday and she will be and is probably very excited about that fact.

China of all Places

So last Tuesday the last thing I heard from Jon is I'm going to get drunk. He is in California has been for almost two weeks. Well I needed to talk to him so I told him I would call him later, I had told him to call before that and someone who had the same phone picked it up and texted me back and it was confusing and when everything got worked out the last thing I hear from him is he is going to get drunk. Well I call him before I go to bed to tell him on his voice mail that I will call him the next day to talk. So the next day Wednesday I text him and then nothing. And then the same on Thursday and nothing, and then Friday nothing, and the same Saturday and again on Sunday by Friday I was freaked. I had no clue if he was dead alive ok not ok. I even said I would call his mom if I did not hear from him by tomorrow, and then the cosmos came to my aid and he was on yahoo when I got back from class today. Relief swept over and I hung up the phone with my mother to talk to him. He told me he was in China, China of all places. So I ask him why he is in China, well of course it was for work and it must have been on Wednesday cause that was the day I lost contact. He was asked if he was still packed from moving, and since he is living on someones couch of course he is still packed, he said yes and was handed a ticket to China to go promote a game. Well his phone doesn't work over there so he has gotten none of my calls or texts and when I told him I was going to call his mom he freaked. He is happy and healthy and having a good time in China and I am no long in a state of stress and worry. It was 4:30am tomorrow there and it was the first time he got to use a computer for non work purposes and I could not be happier, cause I did not want to call his mother and I wanted him to be ok. So my week of stress is over and things are good. But how random was his trip to China? I mean like bam he is in China. This is going to be a crazy new life. I am going to talk to my adviser tomorrow to talk about transferring and the best way to do that. I never saw my life going this way but I couldn't be happier that my life is going this way.