Almost Done

With less then a week left of class and only two finals I am feeling good that this school year is almost over. I have had my personal drama and what not but the actual first year of college is so close to being over. I have decent grades in most of my classes and the few i don't I have opportunity to bring them up. I am ready to be done for a year. I am ready for my break. I am ready to get to work on building my financial freedom and success. I have two weeks left in my dorm and then it will be back to my parents, which I would normally not be excited about but with the circumstance I'm in I actually ok with it, I mean I get to work and make money and they will not make me pay rent or for food, I get to save the money I make for when I move out to Arizona and I will still be making money when I move and not have a "real job" I get to focus on studying and fun. My life is working out even though just a few short weeks ago I thought it would not. I mean I still miss Jon and no matter how hard I try to keep him off my mind it doesn't seem to work, but I'm working on it and it will take time to get over, I loved him, still love him and that is not something that just goes away. I am trying to see other people to help with that but it's hard to know what I want with things ending but not really ending, I kinda feel like I am cheating on him even though he is no longer part of my life, for all I know he is stuck somewhere that has no contact to the outside world worrying what I think has happened to him, but then he could just be being a jerk, i don't know and that is the problem. Oh well everything will work it's self out eventually.

So that is it for now, school almost over and trying really hard to move on with my love life.
Aidan's Day to come soon.

And Nothing is new

Jon is right now sitting in an airport waiting to go to California. HE WILL BE BACK SATURDAY. I am very happy about that but not till like 10pm and it is Valentines day and not that I ever or ever really will care about that holiday I do want to at least spend the day with him, I am thinking that I will go over that night and just spend all of Sunday with him. I asked that weekend off a while ago thinking that I may have to go to California myself that weekend but it looks like he won't be really moving until the beginning of March, which makes me question if I will go out for Spring Break, I mean if he just moved out there he will be so busy that it might be better to save my money and go out there some other time. He is pretty much healed from his wisdom teeth drama I would know was there last night when he took his meds in the wrong order and got sick and then this morning when we both did want to get out of bed, I have class at 8 every morning and I had a quiz in that class so didn't go this morning was to busy not getting out of bed. I mean we hadn't seen each other in over a week and it will be another week before we see each other again cause of his trip to California and well he woke up showed me why he didn't want to get out of bed so how could I have said no, I mean he is so hard to say no to and with the whole in love with him thing it doesn't help that much. Which by the way was still to chicken to tell him, I came close but still nope, I am tempted to text him but he is probably on the plane and couldn't answer and I would drive myself crazy trying to think of how he will respond so I will wait until hr gets back or tell him over the phone sometime this next week. In my own defense I came very close I whispered it but not very loudly not even loud enough for him to question what I was saying. Oh well I got some time. I guess that is it for now.

What a Day

So classes started today and I only had one at eight this morning. It was French I have it everyday, but it is the only class I have on Tuesdays and Thursdays so if I do my homework for the class right after the class I am done with school on Tuesdays and Thursdays by ten. I work on Tuesdays now so I really just get a break between school and work but on Thursdays when I don't work all that time I will have, and what will I do with it. Most likely sleep, or get stuff for other classes done, I will just have to see how productive I feel. Although tomorrow and Mondays and Fridays and also all the Wednesdays this Semester I will have four classes staring with French and ending at two with Geography of Latin America at two, with Astronomy and Fundamentals of Acting in the middle. Really thinking about it and typing it out makes it feel a whole lot less stressful then last semester, I'm thinking I will have a really fun semester.

I leave tomorrow for San Antonio to see my big bro graduate from Air Force Basic Training and to possibly get married. No one in the Austin area knows what is really going to happen with the wedding, it is one mass of confusion.

Jon lost a co-worker who was a good friend to him, to suicide, on Wednesday of last week, but because of a dental appointment he had Thursday he did not find out about it until yesterday. I didn't get to see him but when I was talking to him he sounded so out of it, I felt really bad that he had to go through this so close to such a good life change in his life. Which last i heard EA was up to 60k a year plus moving expenses and the whatever it would cost for Jon to break his lease here in Texas. I guess we are waiting to hear what Sony offers to that and then he should be making hid decision on which company he will be working for, he would prefer EA so lets all just hope that Sony wont offer anymore then the 58k they are already at.

That would be it for now, cause life just keeps going.

It got Cold

Wow it got cold, actually cold, not I'm going to be 40 in the morning and 75 by noon, I have been freezing all day walking to class. Okay so it's not that cold, but still cold. I think it's been about 45 all day but I don't own a outside temperature thing and haven't looked at the weather so I cannot know for sure. I like that it's cold I love cold weather, the idea of it at least, it is not a cold thing to be outside in very cold weather when you core temperature is already lower then normal it makes getting hypothermia an easy thing to do, never been it but was near it one day and I was inside and it was summer, tells you how cold my parents use to keep the house. I need a heavier coat but it's Texas once March rolls around said coat will no longer be useful. I think I am just going to go for a whole layers affect, it helped today.

I have very little clue where I will be living for the next month, not sure if I can stay at my dorm, really don't want to move back to my parents even if it is only for a month, and really need to talk to Jon before I make a decision on it. Plus I also have to see what plans are for the up coming holiday, I know my parents want me to be home for Christmas Eve and Christmas but I kinda want to know Jon's plans and if we are going to exchange gifts and all that fun stuff. I think I am start to not like Christmas, Jon is putting up lights for people which means extra money for him but less time with me, plus now I have all this what to get people and all that fun stuff. I'll figure it out though, always do.

Classes ended today and I only have two finals one the 15th and one the 16th, which gives me plenty of study time. I need to pass my pre-cal final, and with a B or A to get at least a C in the class, and it would be nice to get an A on my foreign affairs final so I can get and A in that class instead of a B, but I will probably end up with a B. All my other classes do not have a final.

I wish I had more Time

I have been unable to work on my novel for over a month now, and when I tried to work on it today I was stuck. I had no clue what I had been planning; I had to sit and think, I'm actually still thinking of where I was going with it. I want to get back to writing but it is so hard to find the time, again I wish I could be a sleepless from my novel cause then I wouldn't need sleep, heck I wouldn't be able to sleep, but I am not and I require sleep and it seem that I am in need of more sleep lately, I am exhausted and really don't know why. Oh well I only have a few weeks of class left and then I get a two month break, a much needed two month break.

Well I'm in Pain

My chest hurts, and I don't know why. It is very irritating especially since I have a PSY test in 30 minutes. My day so far has been spent studying for said PSY test, participating in an experiment for my PSY class, a shower, a drive from the boyfriends to the dorm in morning rush hour, breakfast, I am personally amazed that one happened, lunch, more studying, lots of studying, and to top it all off after said PSY test I will get to write two papers, do some pre-cal homework, and study some more. I guess it is a good thing that my boyfriend is a gamer and will be at a Gears of War 2 release party and then be spending the whole night playing said game, giving me little to be distracted by. Still can't explain the pain and wish it would go away, but oh well, I'll have to live with it for now, got to go take a PSY test.

Happy Election Day

Today is the day when we get to find out who will replace the idiotic, stupid moron we call our president. I turned 18 this year so I got to vote. I voted early. It is not as exciting at it would seem to be. Stand in line for two and a half hours for five minutes of actual voting, but hey I can say I voted, I made a difference. I voted in October, there is no way I would be able to vote today, I would have to find time to drive home, yes only a 20 minute drive, but with class and other stuff it wasn't going to happen. So I voted October 25th during early voting.

This is also cool for me cause my novel starts with this election, now yes in my novel neither Obama or McCain win, but I just couldn't turn them into a dictator, well maybe Mc... no McCain is to old and Obama I just couldn't it would be to wrong, therefore I created Victor Banner. So today in the universe of the Sleepless Victor Banner is being elected the President of the United States, for the sake of humanity be glad that he is not real. I created Victor Banner to be a very evil man with a very evil plan. Now I would tell you his plan but that would spoil my novel. Just believe me and be happy that Victor Banner is a fictional character in my head and not a real person being given power over the US right now.

With that being said lets all hope who ever is the 44th President of the US is better then the moron we have now, so that means Obama for win.


(Yay! two post in two days, I will post more then 12 times this month)

And Life has become...

Amazing. I am now in a relationship, his name is Jon. He is sweet and amazing and I just love spending time with him. We have been together for a little over a week now and it has been the best week of my life. He is 6'5" to my 5'4" but it just makes fitting under his arm easier. It has taken me years to find a guy I can connect with and get along with and even though this is just starting we both already agree that we connect. We enjoy many of the same things, movies, music, and other stuff. I am still trying to let it click in my head that I have someone that cares about me and that I care about, it is such a weird thing for.


Plus my early class tomorrow got canceled so I don't have to get up early, no class till 12:30pm it rocks.

I also noticed that I have exactly 12 post in September and October which is weird, I'm going to try and fix that this month.

Tests

So I has a psy test today it wasn't that bad so with luck i did well. I have a pre-cal test tomorrow so hopefully I will do well on that. Went to the doctor got for shots and blood drawn, they had to stab me with the needle twice and still only got half a cc of blood. I guess my body doesn't want to give up blood.

So much to do, and not enough time

I'm babysitting tonight and I have to go to the doctor tomorrow. It works because I will be a my parents house and don't have to wake up at 6 to get to my appointment, but I have to bring all my crap from my dorm with me to study and on the only day I don't have an early class I have to wake up early :(.

I have been working on my novel so I will post some of that soon.

I should be, but I'm not

I should be studying but I'm not. I think I am going to try really hard to work on my novel and study, so I think I'm ready to give up sleep, it gets in the way and is a waste of time, thus why I'm writing my novel in the first place. Just putting it out there that sleep should be unnecessary, at least in my opinion.

Blah

I woke up today and did not want to move. I felt gross and still do. I skipped my last class so I could eat in hopes that I would feel better, and I do I guess feel a little better, now I have just that much more time to study and relax to feel better. I am so glad I am going to the doctor on Thursday.

Cookie and a Condom

So I had my FIG (First-Year Interest Group) seminar today and we played a game about plagiarism. Not very hard and everyone got a prize, which went from first-aid kits, and calendars, to condoms and condom key chains. I was a lucky one and got a condom. What am I going to with it, at this moment of my life, I do not have a boyfriend, and I don't just go around and have one nighters. But I guess this is college and it's time to get over the shock of the difference between it and high school. Well anyway there was a good ending to this seminar we all got cookies as well, it worked out in the end, I left class with a condom in my backpack and a cookie in my mouth.

Though that cookie is the lest solid food I get to eat because I also pierced my tongue, did not hurt when getting pierced but hurt now. :(