Well it's Over, Done, Finished For Good

It is officially over. Jon will be in Japan for god knows how long and has started to move on and date so I will truly begin to move on to. I have tried in the past way back when I hadn't heard from him and then again after I had heard from him and the breakup was known on both ends. I am still going to try and keep in contact with him and be semi-friends it will be hard but we will see how it goes. This is actually really good because I can really truly move on now even through it will be hard I wont have the guilt I have been having not that I had anything to feel guilty for it is just the way I handled it I was not ready to give up and now I have to give it up cause he has started dating again I can try to start dating again for real cause that is what I need someone I can get close to and feel comfortable with. I have a long road ahead of me and it is not going to be easy, but I'll just take it one step at a time for now and see how far it gets me.